A Cruel Summer

Well, obviously I haven't posted in over a month. Reason why? As if my life isn't already boring enough, now I'm on summer break and I didn't get the summer school position with the county. So I've been sitting here doing pretty much nothing. Aside from some IM chats and watching four seasons of "Lost" (thank you very much, you know who you are), I've been totally idle. Granted, I took and passed the PreKindergarten endorsement test (don't laugh, it's really not as easy as it sounds) and have been by the school a couple of times to check up on my students and my classroom. I've got to get stuff together so that I can set up a brand new classroom in August. I'm working on clearing myself for graduation with my Masters in December.

But no visits anywhere or by anyone else. No social functions. Few phone calls. I feel like what I do during the year is so important, and then it all comes crashing down now that I finally realize my students and my work is about all I've got. I won't even have college after December.

I'm back to the "I need a life" thing. Sure, I blame myself for this quite a bit. I don't like to go out alot and I HATE going out by myself. I'm a transplant from Tennessee so I still don't know alot of people here (especially considering several years since we moved I spent at FSU). I'm not good with being alone, yet because I'm alone I fear going out somewhere alone. It's a catch 22, and a pain at that.

So I'm sure those of you who actually read here were really looking forward to read my rant about being lonely this summer after I haven't posted for a month.

But at least now you know why.