More Thoughts on Life, Love...and the American dream (ok, maybe not the last one...)

It's early, and I'm already blogging. Must be the twilight zone or something. And really, sometimes I feel like I'm IN the twilight zone lately. Just wanted to post this poem/prayer of mine. Warning: Content may seem depressing, but it's more than that. I was always taught, or perhaps I just believe, in blunt honesty when I'm praying. No flowery language. I mean, God already knows how I'm feeling, so why try to say anything other than exactly that. So here it is. It came out poetic, but it also came out just as I feel it.


Dear Lord what should I do now that it has come to this?
Why is it this way?
When does this stop?
I need peace and a way; a way to deal with what I have, to love that which You have Given.
I am blessed; more than I realize
So why do I keep stargazing? What is in your plan? And will I ever get there?
Your ways are higher than mine, and though I may not ever fully understand
I need today to seek Your Hand.
I need Your peace Lord
Cause somewhere deep inside of me I know that it is time for a change from all this...
...so I will continue to stargaze.
So please, DearLord, lead me onto the right path.


Oh, and I also thought I'd post the lyrics to this song Kate gave me since they've really been helpful lately.

Lucky Me by Lisa Loeb

Lucky me
how bad could it be
to be alone for now
to be free

Oh, don’t cry
the time, it passes by
just think of what you’ll get when you’re past this

So is it allright if I go?
Is it allright if I go?

Oh, don’t cry
just think about the end
I’ll find my best friend
at last

Lucky me
I’m ready for a ride
I’ll jump off and take a drive
today
So is it allright if I go?
Is it allright if I go?
Is it allright if I go?

Oh, don’t cry
it’s time to say goodbye.

So is it allright if I go?
Is it allright if I go?