Some Thoughts and Confessions
First of all, I'd like to say thanks to all you guys who gave me well birthday wishes. Considering Bellsouth ate Kate's birthday card and people at work seemed to forget I *had* a birthday, it was really nice that you all DID remember. I love you all very much.
And for this reason I come to my next point. I've been feeling very much in the dumps lately, and you've all been wonderful in listening to me vent and share my frustrations. I don't think I could go on and get through this seemingly never-ending job search without you all. But I must confess, I feel like I've sorta slipped away from my faih while facing all of this recently, and for that I must apologize to you all. Aside from the friendship I have with you all, my faith is that one lifeline that seems to keep me sane. And I've not been in the Word and haven't been praying as much. I've sorta felt like my prayers haven't been heard anyway...
...and I've gotta get past that. I didn't go to church this morning, mostly because it was the entire family's original plan not to go til the later service. Well, since there is family in town, my parents went on and went early...and I stayed home. I'm going to meet them in a bit at my grandmother's house, but I feel like now I skipped out because I'm feeling so sorry for myself.
I won't lie. I'm still hurting like hell about my lack of success in getting a teaching job yet again. But God works in strange ways sometimes when I try to avoid him. Heck, I think He does that with everyone. I actually pulled my Bible out this morning, something I'm not all that great with during the week, particularly between work and school. But I know I *have* to make time for Him now. After all, along with all you guys, He's my lifeline to staying sane.
Well, this is what I read this morning, and I wanted to share. Part of the verse I was directed to by one of you. But I continued on past and got nailed right betweent the eyes.
"I say this because I know what I am planning for you," says the Lord. "I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future. Then you will call my name. You will come to me and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will search for me. AND WHEN YOU SEARCH FOR ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART, YOU WILL FIND ME.
Jeremiah 29:11-13, New Century version (Bold is DEFINITELY for emphasis. And just FYI, I no longer care too much for the version of the Bible that I have, but for the purposes of these verses, it's RATHER clear and profound.)
And I have nothing further to add except thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts, and for listening to me vent. You mean the world to me.
And for this reason I come to my next point. I've been feeling very much in the dumps lately, and you've all been wonderful in listening to me vent and share my frustrations. I don't think I could go on and get through this seemingly never-ending job search without you all. But I must confess, I feel like I've sorta slipped away from my faih while facing all of this recently, and for that I must apologize to you all. Aside from the friendship I have with you all, my faith is that one lifeline that seems to keep me sane. And I've not been in the Word and haven't been praying as much. I've sorta felt like my prayers haven't been heard anyway...
...and I've gotta get past that. I didn't go to church this morning, mostly because it was the entire family's original plan not to go til the later service. Well, since there is family in town, my parents went on and went early...and I stayed home. I'm going to meet them in a bit at my grandmother's house, but I feel like now I skipped out because I'm feeling so sorry for myself.
I won't lie. I'm still hurting like hell about my lack of success in getting a teaching job yet again. But God works in strange ways sometimes when I try to avoid him. Heck, I think He does that with everyone. I actually pulled my Bible out this morning, something I'm not all that great with during the week, particularly between work and school. But I know I *have* to make time for Him now. After all, along with all you guys, He's my lifeline to staying sane.
Well, this is what I read this morning, and I wanted to share. Part of the verse I was directed to by one of you. But I continued on past and got nailed right betweent the eyes.
"I say this because I know what I am planning for you," says the Lord. "I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future. Then you will call my name. You will come to me and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will search for me. AND WHEN YOU SEARCH FOR ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART, YOU WILL FIND ME.
Jeremiah 29:11-13, New Century version (Bold is DEFINITELY for emphasis. And just FYI, I no longer care too much for the version of the Bible that I have, but for the purposes of these verses, it's RATHER clear and profound.)
And I have nothing further to add except thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts, and for listening to me vent. You mean the world to me.
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