As Suspected
I really don't want to dredge up the feelings I am feeling right now on this blog, particularly because I think only about 3 or 4 people read this thing, and they already know how I'm feeling. Being a pretty together person, it all comes down to the fact that I feel absolutely and utterly alone.. I feel trapped where I am, and I don't know what to do about it. I've even gone so far as to investigate the Northeast Florida Astrological Society, an interest of mine, just to have something to actually do other than work, school, and sleep. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I need an outlet, and unless things change really soon, I need it now.
Sorry to dump, but this is my blog so I figure what the heck, that's what it's for. Maybe going to church tomorrow will help, but I honestly don't even know if I'm going to the right church anymore. Granted, I like the contemporary worship and all, but there's no social outlet for me there either, and I would THINK that would be a primary place for such. I don't know, I hope this isn't sounding assinine the way I'm putting it. I don't expect church to center around my needs, but at the same time I guess I expect it to be a place where I can go as a refuge. I mean, isn't this the point? Maybe we're back to the fact that I'm a Christian who loves Star Wars, astronomy, and role playing...and that's a pretty rare combo. Maybe it's something even more than just that.
*sighs* I'm not going to ramble on further with this. Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers everyone, K?
Sorry to dump, but this is my blog so I figure what the heck, that's what it's for. Maybe going to church tomorrow will help, but I honestly don't even know if I'm going to the right church anymore. Granted, I like the contemporary worship and all, but there's no social outlet for me there either, and I would THINK that would be a primary place for such. I don't know, I hope this isn't sounding assinine the way I'm putting it. I don't expect church to center around my needs, but at the same time I guess I expect it to be a place where I can go as a refuge. I mean, isn't this the point? Maybe we're back to the fact that I'm a Christian who loves Star Wars, astronomy, and role playing...and that's a pretty rare combo. Maybe it's something even more than just that.
*sighs* I'm not going to ramble on further with this. Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers everyone, K?
posted by StargazerGirl at 2:05 AM
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I know what you mean. I've been feeling really alone lately too. All I really want is someone that understands me. I tell people how I'm feeling and what's important to me, and they try there best to care... but they don't. It's not there fault, the things going on in my life really aren't very interesting. We just spend so much time with ourselves that everything in our own lives get blown out of proportion. If I was another person looking at me I'd problem say my life is completely insignificant, but its very important to me. It just get the feeling that no matter where you go or what you, no one understands you. But I'm a Christian and that helps. I know that when I'm alone with my thoughts God hears me, and he cares about me. That helps, but not as much as it should.
Sorry if I'm boreing you but I wanted to tell somebody this and you sounded like you might be sympathetic. Anyway good luck, and don't give up.
Oh, hey, I've been meaning to tell you that it's the astronomical society in which you're interested.
Unless, of course, you've gotten into horoscopes and the like since I last saw you (last week). ::grins::
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